i'm doing studying Cognitive for now.
Darn tired, I need a break man. .
pheeew !
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While studying just now i was kinda berkhayal-ing or day-dreaming. .
I was suppose to study but in the end staring on a blank piece of paper.
The blank piece of paper. .
Just reminds me of almost about my life really.
From a young innocent(-.-") boy,
To whom i am now.
17 years past. .
What am i doing here ?
Is it just to worship god and prepare for the afterlife. .
or is there something more to it ?
Is it just to study, get a job, get married, have children, see my sons&daughters excel, grow old with my wife & death takes me ?
Is that actually living my life. .or is it just life ?
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The sins seems to grow, day by day.
I'm loosing myself into it.
I'm the one to save myself but,
I don't see any benefits by doing so. .
There's nothing motivating enough for me to change anymore. .
Love ? Family ? Friends ?
Everything just dies down as days goes by.
Am i being pessimistic ?
Idk. . am i ?
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Sorry for the tons of questions.
Im doubtful. .doubtful of the life that im living in now.
Every step i take seems to be another mistake to you.
I'd rather stand still, for now.
Being who i am, being what i am before i met you.
taking it to the next level. .
Idk if it's right or wrong. .
let me hit onto something, bleeding me.
Then i'll know whether the choices i made. .
are Right or Wrong, you'll see.
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